Stupid, yes i am ! Totally did not know why did i actually said so ?! The heart and mind seems to have gone different ways and i do not know which to follow. I seemed to have followed the 'Mind' and i lied to him, telling him that i'm with someone else now but the fact is i'm NOT. He believed it because it had always been a serious matter for both of us which loads of misunderstandings had happened. Thinking that time may heal those misuderstandings, so we waited for the perfect time to come. But not knowing when will it return to its normal condition. So when i lied to him, yeah i knew its bad, i wanted it to be somehow a fun one, maybe a joke, but then things just get worse. Yes i love him and its not a joke, not a fun thing to joke about. We're not one yet and i did not know when did we became one without me knowing. The question did not even popped out, not even once. I stood here waiting and he stood there waiting. Things just don't get in the right track. I can't be slipping all chances just for that. I showed my 'true colours' as i was real mad about it, 'proving' that he does not understand me AT ALL. So, the story then ended in this way.

1. Thanks for the compliment, saying i'm like the Japanese in Pearl Harbour like i'm

the only one in you.

2. If we're meant to be, things will get back some other time.

3. I neither did gossip nor playing around. Since you dont trust me, then FINE.

4. I will not regret for what i've done and I did not think that what i've done is right so

i'm not hoping for your forgiveness and I will not let another teardrops fall.

5. If we're happen to be together again, i promise that this will never ever happen again and

i'll appreciate what I have which is YOU.

6. Sorry again, ILoveYou.